Roller Coaster

A car drives through a flooded street in Hoboken, New Jersey
A car drives through a flooded street in Hoboken, New Jersey August 28, 2011. About 3.3 million customers lost power in the U.S. East Coast on Sunday as Hurricane Irene lashed the U.S. East Coast. REUTERS/Kena Betancur (UNITED STATES – Tags: DISASTER ENVIRONMENT)

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Another day another roller coaster
Another adrenal corkscrew and a bursting head
Like driving in second gear at 40 miles an hour, going for third
but changing into first and nearly flying through the windscreen
Zig-zagging around a slippery pit clinging onto happiness
Throwing it into the void or holding it preciously
Not knowing if it will be there the following morning
Filling time, killing time, massacring an afternoon
Aimless walks and a head filled with characters
Snapping, shouting and simple misunderstanding
Quieting the mind, tuning out, drowning in information
Endless chatter and disease. Cranial noise
Joy and laughter against a sea of miserable faces
Smiling in hope. Lowering my expectations
Leaving is not the cure. Travel is not the cure. Friendship is not the cure
Solitude is not the cure. The invisible illness. The silent killer
There’s nothing wrong with you. You might be ill. You need help
You need support. Nothing is wrong with you. You are normal.
You can only help yourself. Sick but not sick enough to be classed as sick
Cured. Getting better. Getting worse. Sick again. All better! Still sick
Frequent outbursts. Prolonged silences
Talking to an absent audience and imaginary company
It’s a peculiar feeling, trying to stay on the road and control the wheel
Pretending to be normal
Another day another roller coaster

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